Today was like tiring , monthly medal sux . I think I came in third last . No chance to win , got carl ! His fifth or sixth game was a perfect game . Wtf ! First time I saw a perfect game . Jerene said that I played quite well but I dont think I did . At the beginning , I was so-so . Too much oil , my ball cannot hook so I had to throw differently , luckily my fury did the trick . At my 4th - 7th , was the best . The oil was just right for my ball . It hook perfectly . Got quite a few two hundreds games . Nice ! But sadly , towards the end , the lanes became so dry ! My ball kept on over-hooking . I did not know any lines for dry lanes . Crap ! must learn . Anyway , I was quite happy with my performance today . Next month , I will own 9 pin tap ! Watch out for me !

Shafikah ! You still never teach how to link ppl ! Quick ! I need to know !

Every thing I'm about to say is true . Whether you believe it or not is your problem .
I used to like faith before IPW . During IPW , I was in kim kim 's group so we got to talk a lot . During that duration , I started to have feelings for kim kim . After that , we got to sit near each other for almost all classes . Math - beside me , Science - in front of me , History - in front of me , D&T - near me ...... by then , I started liking kim kim . But along the way , we had complications and fights but we always found a way to overcome them . Then , a few days ago , you say that you were not going to talk to me anymore and I don't know why . In school , you also never talk to me , so I thought you were really serious and it was over but I did not believe it .
Today when I logged on my MSN , I saw your msg saying that you have stead already and that you don't like me . I really believed you and seriously I thought that it was over for real . After that , I did the most stupidest thing ever ! I said that I liked faith again but I really don't . I don't have anymore feelings for her , only for kim kim . Then after kim kim saw the pm , she said that she loved me and that she did not have a stead . She said that she was very hurt . I felt so guilty .
By right , I love kim kim too . But she was so angry with me that she would listen to me anymore . Now she says that she will never like me ever .
Today is the first time a girl has made me cry . Tears were coming out of my eyes . I could not stop thinking about her ...... living is nothing without kim kim in my life . I will do anything to undone the pain that I have caused .

If you know me well , you should know that I hate it when someone gets hurt . I hate myself even more when I am the one hurting people . Why can't we live without hurting ? I will not be blogging for a while . I have just hurt a person that I never meant to hurt . Espically her . I want to apologize to you but I know that you will never forgive me . I am really sorry . If you don't wan to see me ever again .... I don't blame you . Blame everything that that hurt you on me . I will take the blame from you . I have made mistakes in life , some small and some huge . Friendship is like a toothpick . It can be gained very easily , it can be broken easier but it is very hard to mend it back . I will never want a friendship to break , espically you . But if any one of my friendships were to break , I will give it my all to mend it back together . But this case is the hardest to mend back but I will never give up until I mend it back , twice as strong as before .
I will be going into a state of confusion so don't talk to me or distrub me in school . I will not reply back . Until further notice .

Today , quite a boring day . Nothing much really .
kim kim sms me say something that i dont understand , then she say that she dont want to talk me anymore . I was like , why ? I seriously did not understand what you saying that is I sms you back saying "huh?" .....
Today was the first time I played in the wednesday league .... finally I settled in one team . First I was in this team then I was in that team then I was in another team .
Played soso games . Average . I dont think I will be called in a while .
Well that is all for today , I will try to write more posts and add pics soon . Kim kim , talk to me plz !

Fine ! I am sorry to waste your time !

Today very tiring ! I haven't got any time to rest the whole day . Woke up and 9 o'clock , had to wait for the water man to come . My mother said that he would come by 10 o'clock , in the end , he came at 9.55 ! Wtf ! Had to get ready in 15min after that .
At about 1.30 , I had to go to toa payoh for some kind of swimming competition . Damn weird ! I did not anybody there ! My freestyle got like 31.61 sec ! Freaky slow , must go back training . I think I bowl too much .
After that had to grow SSC for youth bowling training . By then , very tired . But saw faith and my energy level increased a bit . haha ..... Christopher came ! After so long of not coming training , Chris came . His birthday is Tuesday . Wonder what should I give him as a present .
After training ,(damn tired) had to go the interclub bowling. Keppel club . Sean , Jerene , Kristel and me were bowling tonight . The lanes there are very weird and lousy , sometimes the lanes will be very dry and sometimes they will be very oily . They will never be the condition you want it to be . I bowled like crap ! Worse than jerene , OMG ! That is like very low for me . My average was like 110 .
I figured out how I bowl well . I bowl well with my friends or alone , it is for fun and there will be nobody to compete with , so there is no pressure . I can play well and to my fullest potential . I bowl very bad when I'm in a competition , my teamates and coach would be always depening on me to do well , always looking at me to bowl high games . There will be no fun and a lot of pressure on me , my hand and body will tense up and my games will be totally ruined .
Anyway , I gtg . Sleepy ! Tomorrow must wake up for swimming training . Then must cut my hair , its in a mess and people says it looks like mushroom ! Tomorrow must still bowl in the mothly medal .
Goodnight !

today is the lsat day we get to see mdm liong . So sad ! I will miss her . Tomorrow , there will be a good bye party for her but I dont think I can go . Damn , interclub bowling . Hopefully I can still go for an hour or two .
Class was quite boring today . Nothing to do . The whole of english lesson was taken up by the speeches ! Rosaline still does not get it ! Ms Tan says that the recommended time is 5 min but still Rosaline took 10 min . C.M.E and maths lessons had nothing to do , just talk and talk and talk the whole lesson . History was o.k , i guess cuz Ms wong says that we were distracted by the leaving of Mdm liong . So she was teaching us very slowly . During history lesson , Geok Hoon asked me the weirdest question ever ! She asked me , what if her sis ( Geok Kim ) were to kiss me on the cheek perposely , how would I feel ? I was like "huh" ?!?! Why did she want to know ? In the end , she answered her own question . She just said that I would be happy . I was totally speechless . Her answer was sort of like truth but I did not want to say it out cuz Geok Kim was sitting right in front of me .
I am going to bowl now at SSC . Rahmat going to sell his 'absolute inferno' to me for about 50 dollars . I thought it was quite a reasonal price for a very good second-hand ball . Absolute inferno is one of the better bowling ball of the inferno series .
Tomorrow going to play interclub bowling at keppel club . No one wanted to bowl . Wonder why ? At first , I did not want to bowl cuz the lane at keppel sux ! But Rahmat was like sort of begging me cuz there were no bowler left . The maintaince at keppel club sux . The last time I played there , my ball came back looking like crap !
Anyway , I gtg !
Bye !